My beloved grandma is unconscious. They say she might not wake up.
I'm numb. Tears don't help.
All I feel yet is that it has to be enough soon. No more bad news for a while. Please.
Now, I'm going to feel nothing for a while until I explode in a fountain of useless tears again.
Tears sometimes help, but after the exsessive use of tears the last month I find them completely useless now.
Fuck this. (Yes, I actually said fuck this. Pardon my English, so to speak.)